This guy I've only recently found out I love uses me for sex and I lost my virginity to him, and I know I'm only young but it was the pressure he was putting on me to do it but I still love him for it and he's quite rough with me and I'm below average size and thin while he's a lot taller and stronger but I couldn't say no as a love him anyway twice now I've met up with him for sex and it makes me feel closer to him, he says he hates me and doesn't want to know me and my friends don't know and he's a player and tries to chat them up on Facebook and that but they discuss it and I shout at them because they don't know the pain I'm going through and they make fun off me all the time and so does my family so I can't trust them. He treats me like crap and I hurt myself over him when I shouldn't. I need to get over him but I don't know how please help me because its starting to take away my life and slowly kill me x

Don't blame it on "the pressure" lol. It's your fault you lost your virginity. Don't be a suck up and say "he made me do it" and crap like that... Grow up. Get over him and find someone else, you're better than that.. At least I hope you are.

Yh I guess, thanks :)

Leave him alone.
You know you're getting used, but yet, you tolerate it?
No Contact.

No woman / girl is unworthy. Start taking a little more pride in yourself, find some self confidence and don't sleep with boys just because you want them to like you.

People react differently to pressure. I myself if I feel pressured walk away from the situation unless its something I feel confident in dealing with then I confront it. If it's a position that I'm unable to walk away from and pressured I double up on the courage and hold my ground. No means no.

Your friends aren't friends if they don't support you and he is most definitely not worth wasted energy if he treats you like a door mat.

Leave him at the kerb. Even then I don't think the kerb is worthy of him.