How has she lost all feelings for me?
So ill try to keep this as brief as I can, but I need a lot of help I am in a really bad place right now. My ex and I dated for just under 2 years, we are both 20, yes I know were young and I don't know about life blah blah blah. I loved the girl with all my heart! I've had 2 previous relationships one a year, and the other 2 years. I knew both of those wouldn't work out and the first one I was broken up with and it sucked but I bounced back rather quickly. Well my recent ex broke up with me about a month ago now.
Our relationship was what I would describe as perfect, we fought minimally and if we did we knew how to take time apart be with our own friends for a bit, then talk things out and things were that much better between us, I never swore at her, never cheated on her, I'm very goal oriented, she had her ambitions about being a nurse and we both supported each other and were ready to take on the future. Well this would be our junior year of college and last year I heard about an internship that would take me 8 hours away, so we discussed it for about 4 months before I left, she constantly encouraged me to go go go and take the job, she knew it would suck being away but she would stay busy with school and wed talk regularly. So I applied for the job and was able to get it. It came time to leave and she was sad and said she would miss be but knew it was all for the best and she loved me more for all I was a sacrificing.
During the first 4 months I was here we saw each other fairly regular about every two weeks usually for at least 3-5 days at a time, so I wasn't really away that much. And even during that time she told me how happy she was with me and within the year of me getting back wanted to seriously consider getting married. I was hesitant at first but started to like the idea as I really do the love girl and started saving up money.
Well then the last time I went home things were great and amazing and she was still unhappy I was gone but nothing seemed out of the usual. The following week after I had left she called me and said she was unhappy, didn't know why couldn't explain it and was all around upset. She told me she had been unhappy for the entire past year of our relationship(news to me and I think it was a cop out excuse) and she doesn't think it would work out anymore. Well I did the usual cry beg, plead for her not to leave me bull****, and offered we try taking a break first, well that lasted for a day and she called the next day saying it was over. I called and texted her for a week trying to ask why and what happened and she seemed to get annoyed. So I let her be, then after a few days of not calling she messaged me saying she was drunk and felt bad but would explain later. I gave her until the next day, then kind of getting upset I wrote her a long good bye message that took me about a day and half to write. Finally after about 3 days she told me she accidentally deleted my message and wrote me something that looked like it took about 20 minutes basically telling me she doesn't think we'll be together when we get back and all about how she changed her hair.
I've been devastated with out her and love her more than anything in the world. Recently I've heard from some friends in her classes that she has been talking to some new guy but doesn't want to do anything until she's over me. I haven't talked to her in a week now and its killing me that I went from someone she wanted to spend her life with to all of the sudden she just gave up on us and is already considering someone else. The only thing I never liked about her was she was a party girl, but really when I was home, she kind of gave up partying and was always so loving and adoring when we were together. I miss her so much.
I've seen other posts on here and how helpful everyone can be I hope I can get some of that same help. I hate not hearing from her but being away I feel helpless in that there is nothing I can do. Our anniversary would be next week and I want to say something to her but I also think I shouldn't. Please if anyone has advice I would be glad to hear it. Thanks for reading!