Let me just start by saying, I want to like myself.I want to like the person I'm becoming. I want to try but I just cant.
I got pregnant about a year ago by this guy that I didn't even like that much and he was the guy who I gave my virginity to. I didn't know what I was doing and my family issues were really getting to me and I just wanted to feel something besides pain. I wanted to experience something new. But I was just being stupid.
After I got pregnant. I got an abortion... I wanted to keep the baby but my family nor the guy would let me. And I regret it till this day... and the guy is a horrible person so he went and told all his buddys and now everyone I know thinks am a whore and some loser who got pregnant and killed her problems... they talk behind my back they call me names and they even put up a photoshoped picture of me on Facebook... its not like I'm perfect and its not like I was nice to everyone who ever spoke to me but I don't think I deserve it...
I'm just filled with so much shame and guilt and I don't know how to like myself anymore. I feel like my friends are amashed of being seen with me and I feel like my mothers ashamed to have given birth to me. How do I get over this? How do I forget all about it? I just want to leave it all behind but I'm reminded every single day... please help me.