Hi I'm sagar... at the age of 17 I used to get thougths of harming my own parents or killing my parents I ignored it... at the age of 19 I used to get thoughts of slapping my own friend standing beside me... I used to wonder why these thoughts appear... and when I was in 21 was doing my engineering 2 year... had a exam one day... before that day I revised and went to bed and all of a sudden I got very anxious and got very scared and my heart started pounding... from that day my life has completely changed... im jealous of my former self... after exams I consulted a psychiatrist... he put me on medication... became well... but was sleeping lot so my parents told me to stop medication and I stopped... after stopping things got much more worse than before... n we consulted a new psychiatrist... his treatment is not so effective but I had no other option than taking his medication because my parents forced to take his medication... I feel so sad for no reason... very guilty for no reason... I always cry a lot... and I'm a insomniac too... sometimes I feel like going crazy... I feel like ill go mad... my life is ruined literally... *** help.

My advice is to go back to your doctor and have your current medication accessed.

Never stop taking meds unless your DOCTOR instructs you to do so.

Not all medication will work 100 percent and that is why you need to keep going back to the doctor, find out what doses and what other things work and help more

There are so many anti-depressents out there, of course not just any one will work for you. I recommend seeing a phsychologist, as they can't prescribe drugs, but help you discover the underlying reasons for your issues. If you just cover up your subconscious and what's making you think like this with medication, the thoughts will never go away. (I feel a lot of the time psychiatrists just prescribe you drugs and wait for them to 'work') Also, maybe try seeing a naturopath. There are some quite good natural anti depressents etc that may have less dramatic side effects