My name is jennifer and I'm 23 yrs old. Successful hair dresser, great family, everything going for me... except one problem that holds me back from going any further. Im bulimic, and am addicted to crystal meth to stay skinny. I hate hurting my family, and I hate what I'm doing to my body. I don't want to die but I don't know how to stop. I have to stay skinny or I won't be happy or functional. It totally takes over every other thought in my mind and will stop at nothing. No matter how much I work out, and watch what I eat, I'm never as thin as I want to be unless I do meth. Please help me find a better way... I can't live like this anymore

You need to seriously look into a drug rehab program. Being both bulimic AND addicted to crack to stay thin is a serious condition. You could actually have a heart attack at any time due to your starvation diet and due to the crack in your system.

And no, you don't have a "successful life" as you are seriously in need of serious help. You are obviously stressed out beyond your comfort zone with all that you have on your plate and are resorting to these two extremely self destructive habits in order to "cope". The bulimia is definitely a form of mental illness. I've worked around bulimics and anexorexias and they are basically the same. They are both antisocial personalities trying to deal with their lives the only way they know how to - by self destructive ways.

Please, please contact a mental health or rehab center as soon as possible to get some help otherwise you just might not be around too much longer with that kind of lifestyle.

I went and read your other posts about bulimia and meth use/addiction.

I was astounded that you could hand out such wonderful advice and then not take your OWN advice about receiving psychiatric help for the bulimia and rehab for the meth.

Please explain how you can hand out such wonderful advice and then not take it.

(I know that meth is not crack)

Do you have access to a detox/rehab facilty, I mean long term, at least 2 months?

Meth is nasty, dangerous, and deadly. It's a homemade mix of ANYTHING.

You don't have to explain anything to me, or anyone else for that matter. I know all too well the addiction demon, and how it makes you still quite functional, but a slave nonetheless. (Painkillers were my beast.) Only an addict would know that. So called "normal" people cannot understand that, or how you can dish out good advice one day, and still not be able to follow it the next. An addict's brain is wired differently.

Go get detoxed, go through a long term rehabiltation, and then get into a 12 step program like Narcotics Anonymous. Please seek counseling for the bulimia, since it's the root of your problem.

You know you need professional help, go get it before you die.

God bless you.

God bless the still suffering alcoholic/addict.

I am in the same boat.
Bulimic and addicted to meth. Professional help is the only way to stop kidding ourselves, and take some accountability for what we're doing to our bodies. I recently sought out help, and the doctor diagnosed me with Bipolar Disorder. The Bipolar Mood Disorder explains my ED and Substance Abuse. Going on medication for my Bipolar Disorder has made each day easier, allowing energy to truly work on myself and recover. Maybe you have a mood disorder?
Please stop torturing yourself, you don't have to live like this anymore
Good luck and God Bless
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Originally Posted by lucyinthesky89

... the doctor diagnosed me with Bipolar Disorder. The Bipolar Mood Disorder explains my ED and Substance Abuse. Going on medication for my Bipolar Disorder has made each day easier, allowing energy to truly work on myself and recover. Maybe you have a mood disorder?

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Thank you for your advice and empathy. Frequently the advice of those similarly suffering is far more compelling than professional analysis.

However, from my perspective, I'm unclear as to how your Bipolar Disorder serves to explain bulimia and substance abuse problem.

Please understand that I am not challenging the diagnosis nor the sequential relationship of the conditions in your case. Rather only looking for the connection as you see it, or as it was explained to you, so that I may better understand the inter-relationship of the respective conditions.

The first rule of any therapy: When it works keep doing it!

Best wishes on your continued recovery and thank you, again, for your advice and looking forward to your response.

I have the same problem as well... Ive been taking this crap for almost 3 months as in everyday before going to work I eventually leaned on to it for doing day to day task but I also realized that My body is at its limits, and in 1 event I suddenly woke up 3:15-3:20 am and I was feeling so depressed with no particular reason, as if it reached to my deepest thoughts and brought out all of my past despairs/failures, regrets and past grudges and combined it altogether no amount of breathing technique helped me. I even took some 15 min break to assess myself and take control of the situation but it made me so aggitated and by the time I felt that I was about to lose my composure and sanity and with no warnings or what so ever thr thought of suicide just pop out of my mind... That was like the 1st time I was so scared even the thought of me being scared is also adding up to the problem I immediately took out my pipe and gave myself a huge 1 puff doze and waited for at least 2 minutes I even got up did a couple of jumping jacks to help the drug flow to my body faster... I really hate to admit but the sudden nightmare that I was going through suddenly vanishes like the white puffy smoke we used to love... The only one I can think of helping me is HIM... No matter how you look at it no amount of well trained doctors can even compare to HIM. As of now Im already in the stage of withdrawing thanks to HIM I haven't felt any withdrawal symptoms. I wish you a better recovery for both of us. GOD is just waiting and always ready to lead people like us back the LIFE we once knew and loved. ^_^