I feel such a mess I don't feel like I'm doing enough but when I try and do more I feel people think why she trying to be better or get gelous I don't trust anyone anymore and I don't know what I think anymore nothing is clear

I think you’re probably a bit depressed. Things always seem worse when we are a bit down. Have a check at the doctors and he might be able to give you something that’ll help you over the worst of it.

A bit of focus might help. Maybe some changes could be made to make you feel better. Try to pinpoint what is bothering you the most and deal with it a bit at a time. Sometimes looking at a big job can put you off doing anything about it. But if you can break it down into smaller jobs it might make it easier to deal with.