Originally Posted by Newfie_beauty
ok so ive been with this guy for 7 months, almost 8. I think im truly in love well i thought i was anyways. Hes 34 and im 19. WE met through the internet and so far was so good, he has a 12 year old daughter and im currently living with him and his parents they are from germany but now reside in canada. we already had issues from the start with him chatting to another woman for 2 years before he met me online, he says they were just friends and that he didnt know if she exist. We ended up finding out she wasnt real and she admitted the pictures werent her. In the first 2 months i still stayed around thinking they were only chatting buddies before we found out the truth she was a liar and said she danced and by the pictures she looked amazing. Anyways i saw hes messenger left up one night while he was sleeping and it was just that day that they were chatting while i was home before i moved in and he was saying how much he was in love and needed her and how she could stay here and go to college and he saw them as a couple and that she would be perfect. Since he does like dark headed other race women! I am a red head and irish so im not near what hes sexual wants. Anyways i caught him and he denied the whole thing saying "oh we are just friends i just wanted to see what she would say" and then i said well maybe we should break up and he said well who said we are a couple and being the nieve young one i sucked it up and i am still here. Then just a few weeks later after he found out this chick wasnt real he said OH would you be my girl friend???not even 20 minutes after he found out he told me and then asked me to be his girlfriend. Anyways ive been insecure every since and ive felt so used but yet i think im in love and sometimes he makes me feel so good. I am the only one from my family here in TORONTO i moved here alone a year ago from Newfoundland/Canada. Anyways i do not trust this man that i think i love and lately i can't do anything now, after weeks later i thought this would work alot better since this girl was out of the picture but i think its worst. We can't talk about anything because he doesnt want to understand or he says oh you just think wierd. Also he had sex with a man and that man still calls. Sometimes i think hes bi sexual and lying he says he was just experimenting to see if thats what he wanted. Anyways im really really stuck and i think i love him but yet he makes me feel so bad about me and my life. Am i to insecure? Is it me really making him miserable? I keep saying im trying really hard since im 19 and hes 34 with a kid and still at home in debt trying to pay off bills. I feel hes keeping me behind or trying to trap me. He always makes me feel so bad when we argue and lately i dont leave the place because i have anxiety. Should i go home and forget about this freak or stick around and give him a chance???? He always says he doesnt have any problems and i know he does but i need other peoples advice for this one, it seems i always feel guilty and im the one to always take the blame. Im so emotionally and argue and mentally drained!
PLEASE HELP
