Feeling like dead advice needed
Hi everyone;
I have been with my ex girlfriend 4 years (last 2 years lived together) I met her when she was 17 and now she is 21 and I am 25. I won't go too much in detail as because it would be very long but nothing very major went bad in the relationship.
6 days after we came back from holiday she brake up with me and started telling me all these as a reasons;
1) She is selfish and I deserve someone better
2) Her and me grown apart.
3) She does not know what she wants in the life.
4) She loves me to bits she cares about me but not in love with me anymore.
5) She does not want no more commitments in her life. Just want to be free without any relationship and wants to do whatever she wants.
6) She does not want anyone just wants to be herself and spend her time with her (girl) friends.
etc... also she has told me that she has been thinking this about 3 months before she has gone. I haven't realised anything sadly because she was always telling me when are we getting married when am I buying the rings how much she loves me etc...
When I asked her what was all these about she said they were her feelings just for that time beings (confused) So someone telling me to get married and if I said lets go get married she would have married to me and divorce me after a few months?
Anyway in the 2 years of living together I supported her financially 1 and half years and I found her a job 5 months ago and now she probably thinks she is done with me because she got confidence and freedom. Basically I feel like I have been used very nicely here.
In other hand I would say if someone never loved me deeply why the hell would they spend their 4 years with me?
Since we broke up its been 3 weeks exactly and I don't have her phone number as she was using the number I had on my name contracted while she was with me and I took the simcard of her. Now she has got new number and day after she went I asked her friend from work to give me her number and she said that she doesn't want me to get her number and I said fair enough.
3 days later went to see her at her house and tried to speak to her and she said to me that she is happier with her life and never cried in that 3 days but I had her online banking details and we saved some money in her bank account and the day after she brake up with me spent over £800 in town shopping so I know she wouldn't have time to think about me :).
So after seeing her last time then since I went completely no contact as I have a lot of pride in me and will not look myself like an idiot who is running after someone who doesn't want me anyway.
But someone give me advices what's happening with her? Why she give me so many different reasons after each time I ask her more and more I hear different reasons.
Does anyone reckon would she ring me after some time? Would she even think about what happened or have any question marks on her head?
Any advice would be appreciated.
Thanks