Cant get over dads death and its been 17 years!
Hi
I am 33 years old and still suffer with loss of my dad. When I was 15 my father had a massive heart attack and died in front of me, I blamed myself for a while because I thought I could have done something more to save him but I just ran off to phone an ambulance.I will never forget the look on his face as he lay there and it haunts me every night to this day. I lay awake at night just thinking about death and its making me really depressed, pluss I start thinking about when other family members are going to die.I hate the way I feel and suffer from panick attacks. I wonder why I was never offered counselling by my doctor got any help, I was just a boy and nobody ever asked how I was feeling, I was being treated for panick attacks and depression at 15!
Has anyone been through the same?
Thanks for reading
M