I feel like the world has ended on me
Hi there,
Here comes my story...
Met a girl 8 years ago... I was 30, she was 21.
I fell in love, she was young, pretty and I loved being around her. I thought she did too, but then after some months of being together she cheated. She came back saying that it was a mistake, and that she loved me, and wanted me back... I gave her a chance and we got back together. Things went very well, until after about a year, when it happened again... Again, she cried and cried and cried for me to get back with her. I did again, because I love her. I swallowed my pride and gave her another chance. Well, now here's the part that will surprise everyone here. It's been 8 years, I'm 38 now, and she has cheated once a year since we started dating. Why the hell am I with her? Well, because I do feel I love her, and the times when she hasn't cheated have been great. And she has not been with the other people for more than weeks. I know because when we were fine, we saw each other almost every day. The cheating happened at specific times when we sort of drifted apart. Ok, so the last time it happened again I was really devastated. I said, "this is it", no more!. But now she has come back with a totally new argument for me, one that I never heard before. She says a friend came to her and talked to her about God. She went to a spiritual gathering, and she says she is a new person. She says that God has changed her, and that she has asked him for forgiveness for all the wrong things she did. She says that if we got back together, things would be so different because she wants to give love and please God. I still love her, and I was determined to leave her after the last incident. But now some people have told me that God is mighty and can really change a person. Could it be? Should I really give her another chance again? Have I not given here enough chances already? What I do know is that I feel like crap. I feel like all my hopes went down the drain... I feel that I'll never find love again. HELP!