How can I deal with my partner's death
My partner died almost six weeks ago,we were together fourteen years and although he had some alcohol problems the last couple of years and suffered from depression his death was sudden and unexpected. I found him dead in bed and keep asking myself if I had been in his room earlier maybe I could have done something or realised that something was wrong and phoned a medic or an ambulance.
I have these waves of emotion as I'm sure all people do in my position,one moment I am accepting of the situation and the next I can't stop feeling desperate and just want to be with him. I know that I won't do anything silly myself as it's not my style but that does not stop me feeling as I do.
Friends and family have been wonderful, but I miss him so much and feel so alone at times and can't see the point in going on without him, he was so kind and generous in every way and the thought of not being together and doing all the things we used to do together is unbearable.