I just graduated high School and am currently enrolled in a state college and am attending orientation soon. I never really thought about college when I was a little kid. That's obviously not the reason why I don't want to go to college, but I think that's a good side note. I can't explain why I don't want to go to college. I don't have horrible grades. They sway back and forth and until this year, my worst grade was a C.

I knew I didn't want to go to college the moment I had to apply. But no one thinks that what I have to say is valid. I have this gut feeling in the pit of my stomach that college is NOT the right choice. At least right now. I know it's a little late in the game but the closer and closer college gets, the more depressed I become.

My last marking period I received an F in History of Genocide. The class I was looking forward to taking the most. I got an F because I am depressed and I can no longer be interested in the things I once was. This whole year I have been using pot and alcohol more than I used to use. Not just recreationally. And recently. I have been so depressed that I can't even smoke pot. At all. Without hating myself. So Ive stopped. I just know that college is going to not be good. I have a feeling.

Please don't answer this and try to tell me that drugs aren't good.
That's not the point.
The point is, I know college isn't right for me but my parents are insitant upon me going.

Hi, sexxyredd!

What do you think is the cause of your depression, please?

Thanks!

When I graduated high school I went to college knowing it wasn't right for me. I dropped out just after Thanksgiving of my first semester and joined the Army. After 10 years of military service, I left and went back to school when it WAS right for me. I graduated from college with a 3.89 GPA at 35 years old.

If its not right for you right now, go and follow what IS right.

Another quick anecdote... a good friend of mine went to college and then grad school to get her MBA. 2 years into the workforce, she quit her job with the bank and went to beauty school and has been loving her life as a hair dresser for the last 8 years.

Education is important, but doing what you want to with your life is more so, imo.

I think what is more important than attending college is getting yourself some medical help, some counseling, etc. to find out the root of your depression.

There are other options out there because a four year degree. But get yourself healthy in body and spirit. One cannot concentrate on a future when one feels the present is not right.

The best of everything to you and good luck.