She's doesn't want to talk to me over something I did when I didn't even know her.
The girl I love has found dirty emails which I really am ashamed of and should not have happened but they did because I was getting to desperate for female attention as I never had any.
She found my emails and is so mad. Ive tried everything. Ive tried talking and making up with her. Ive tried to make her understand how much I love her and how those emails should never have hap pend.
If I known she was going to come in to my life it would never have hap pend. Now I'm paying the price of her walking out my life over something I done when she wasn't even in my life.
Im so heartbroken. I've given her space and then tried to talk to her but nothing is working. I don't want to give her space anymore,. I just can't go on like this.
Now every time that I try she says I'm being pathetic and clingy. She said we can be friends but yet yet ain't even talking to me.
She doesn't even love me back as she's told me. She's still in love with her ex. So why is she acting like this? What am I meant to do? I keep breaking down.
IM so heartbroken. Its just so unfair. I can't change the past.
I think I finally know why I'm so depressed. Its because I'm not her type!
I think I finally know why I'm so depressed. Its because I'm not her type! What an earth am I mean to do?
The love of my life who does not want to be in a relationship with me has told me some time ago that I am not her type. And her ex is the life of her life and she is still in love with him after a coupe of years even though she says would never again be in a relationship with him again.
Now I believe this is the reason why I'm so down and depressed all the time. Im always on the internet looking for answers as I don't have much friends to talk to..
After monthd of thinking I finally know why. I am defiantly not her type. From height, to skin Colour. Although I do have the body build.
She says I have a great personality but it is not enough. She is my best friend and will always be my best friend regardless but I just want her so much. No one can take her place. I can't even think of being with someone else cause I'm so in love with her.
Is it wrong to wait till she finds someone which will then allow me to move on?(hopefully) I just can't move on while she is still single. Im so hopeful. And even is she doesn't become my partner but if she is single that good enough for me I guess.
She has got me so weak and I'm trapped falling for her. My world revolves around her. Ive tried talking to her. But I know there's no chance for me and her as she is way way better than me and is in a much better league. She's classy and so beautiful where as I'm just a wreck.
She's taking my virginty for everything. She's my first proper best friend, she's taken me to places where I've never been, she teaches me new things, she makes me so happy, before she came in to my life I used to be so lonely and wished for some one like her and somehow by LUCK she entered my life. I thank god everyday. But now it feels like I'm losing her because of my strong feelings for her.
She's all I've ever wanted. Im a young 20 year old man and I'm so in love with the one person I just can't have.
She's the nicest person I've ever met sometimes I'm so horrible to her and she will still be nice to me after she has had her goes at me. I just can't win. There's nothing I can do.
I think I finally know why I'm so depressed. Its because I'm not her type!
I think I finally know why I'm so depressed. Its because I'm not her type! What an earth am I meant to do?
The love of my life who does not want to be in a relationship with me has told me some time ago that I am not her type. And her ex is the life of her life and she is still in love with him after a coupe of years even though she says would never again be in a relationship with him again.
Now I believe this is the reason why I'm so down and depressed all the time. Im always on the internet looking for answers as I don't have much friends to talk to..
After monthd of thinking I finally know why. I am defiantly not her type. From height, to skin Colour. Although I do have the body build.
She says I have a great personality but it is not enough. She is my best friend and will always be my best friend regardless but I just want her so much. No one can take her place. I can't even think of being with someone else cause I'm so in love with her.
Is it wrong to wait till she finds someone which will then allow me to move on?(hopefully) I just can't move on while she is still single. Im so hopeful. And even is she doesn't become my partner but if she is single that good enough for me I guess.
She has got me so weak and I'm trapped falling for her. My world revolves around her. Ive tried talking to her. But I know there's no chance for me and her as she is way way better than me and is in a much better league. She's classy and so beautiful where as I'm just a wreck.
She's taking my virginty for everything. She's my first proper best friend, she's taken me to places where I've never been, she teaches me new things, she makes me so happy, before she came in to my life I used to be so lonely and wished for some one like her and somehow by LUCK she entered my life. I thank god everyday. But now it feels like I'm losing her because of my strong feelings for her.
She's all I've ever wanted. Im a young 20 year old man and I'm so in love with the one person I just can't have.
She's the nicest person I've ever met sometimes I'm so horrible to her and she will still be nice to me after she has had her goes at me. I just can't win. There's nothing I can do.