My angel and a demon has is debating inside my head for an event that will only take place on the 12th month of this year.
I cannot believe that I am participarting in this scheme of exploring things with mr sky.
Wow I know how happy and sweet they seem to be that hits me and turn me to reality of life his with someone.
On the other hand when we talk and we begin to communicate I seem to forfet that.
Thanks angel for reminding me that I should always step on the ground and be rightful.
My defenses are weaken when we start to talk again. He seems like he has the magnet to attract me. We meet 3 years ago his a formet colleague he used to court me but we but I'm not ready that time and when I was he was with someone..
And fall on his charm and we begin to guarrantee again to each other about our pending get-together.
This sound absurb when I think about how I could be knowing he has someone there waiting in the Philippines.
He apparently has the previledge to stop over here in malaysia before going home to Philippines.
Though he can take the direct flight he really promised to stop by herefor 3 days to see me and you know.
I feel cheap that though we are friends really good friends prior to this "exploring things" moment; mainly because
I felt that he may just want to take advantage of me having a huge crush on him and (honestly) need. Well I admit been really long time and I don't have
A boyfriend for almost 3 years now. I don't seem to like the 2 guy courting me here. And for all the reason I like mr sky only. Please help me.
Its truly in appropriate as I know he is involve.but I coulnt get hold of my emotions to stop me from loving him. We both are not discussing about our "friendship"
And I believe he won't. Do you think we should still see each other? Or I allow myself to give it a try sto set my emotions free and to actually confront him personally and tell him that I love him.
And if he doesn't love me at all I want us to stop. Do you think I should do this?
Please advice me.

You need to get a hold of yourself and leave this guy alone. To be honest, you don't even need to read your whole story to know that the best advice is to walk away from this situation.

When there are three people in a relationship such as the case with you, that is one person too many.

He is involved with someone else, and as long as he is, keep your dignity intact, and do not profess love for him, because he is not available.

While you have very strong feelings for him, when there is no love reciprocated, then it is only infatuation. A one way street. And a dead end at that.

If it were me, I would not encourage him. Let him know that if at some point in the future, he is free to pursue a meaningful relationship with you, then give you a call.

To take the 'friendship' any further than where it is right now, will only lead to heartache for you, because you will be second best, until he decides to leave the other woman, and he may never do that.

And think about what kind of man would play two women at the same time anyway. If this woman lived down the street from you, he'd not give you a second thought.

You can do much better for yourself by being realistic, and taking charge of your emotions.

Walk away before this becomes an unhealthy mess. Just because you want that romance you haven't had in a while doesn't mean you will find it by being a mistress, a piece on the side to a married man.

Come on, you can do much better without a desperate move like this.

Liaten to the angel in your head and move on>>without him.

zoemarie; thanks =D

jake2008;thanks for the enlightenment. I'm just scared I guess to loose the friendship more than anything else. I feel like I'm a loser in any relationship whether romantic, friendship and family. Sometimes I feel like a crap trying to fit in and trying to be always there. I'm actually scared to loose the friendship, I know I suck. Because walking away entails walking away from friendship. Sometimes I feel bad about being to needy to be needed and to need more than I should. I'm such a mess.

taliman; thanks although I'm in a situation not ideally the situation I was painting in my head. Sometimes I just want to freeze myself and reassess.

daisyboo; thanks daisyboo... my defenses weakens when we start taking again no matter how strong I put up when his there talking I simply forgets again.

I'd put an end to this relationship ASAP. He's already taken and is off limits. If you allow him to, he will simply continue using you and will continue going home to his girlfriend.

You are definitely better than that. Break away from the fantasy and find yourself a boyfriend who isn't taken.

Never let yourself be the other woman. You are a stand-in, a spare, a used woman.

Go find yourself respect.

Anyone that will cheat WITH you, will cheat ON you.