Lost my Dad when I was 10 years old
I lost my Dad when I was 10 years old. He was 52 when he died. He died from a sudden heart attack whilst at work and I never saw him again. It is coming up to the 34th anniversary in a few days and already I am in pieces. I miss my Dad all the time but am always beside myself when it gets to the dreaded 22nd of May. I went for years without talking to anyone about it and just shut it out. Recently I have tried talking about it but it doesn't make me feel any better. There is such a big gap in my life . I feel like such a loser - my Mum is nearing her 85th birthday, she never re-married, nor did she ever date another man - I am so proud of her. She seems to be very strong and I wish I had some of her strength. I have never been able to talk to her about losing my Dad, I'm afraid of upsetting her. I always thought it would get easier as the years went on but it doesn't. I know there are no answers on how to cope but any suggestions would be greatly appreciated.
John