I am 34 years old and still do not know why I am on this planet.I will explain what I mean.
I was in a car accident when I was 18 and almost died. I was also electrocuted in it. This gave me many injuries and put me in hospital for five months. I was bed ridden for three of them so I lost the ability to even bend my legs. I had to relearn how to walk. I was very athletic before accident and had a special someone. Basically I lost the last to things I mentioned which in turn I lost my identity.
Fast forward to present... my left foot still gives me trouble because of electrocution and am in line to get foot fused because of pain from foot drop. I am off work and probably will not be able to go back do to this condition.
This is where the trouble is... I know there are people out there that are worse off them me, but I always ask myself why. Why I did not die? Why did this happen to me? Is there something I am suppose to do? (by this I mean because I did not die)
And my last problem with this s about this girl friend I had at the time of accident. I still think about her. I even emailed her and told her I still love her. Gee-sh I should just be hit on the head... help!