What did i do wrong? How to get over her?
Well to begin this,
This is my first post ever. I just googled advice and this cite came up, so here it goes!
I was in a relationship for pretty much 4 years. March 19 was our anniversary.
-The story-
So I had been with this girl for four years, and it was both of our firsts. I had pretty much done anything and everything to make life easier for this girl, I loved her with my whole heart. She grew up in a tough area, or a ghetto or whatever you want to call it. She had no father, no anything. She's very anti-social and depressing. For the first three years of our relationship I had drove her back and forth to work, and to college. Were we both attended the same work and college. We had a cute little notebook that we both wrote into when one of us was in class and the other was waiting in the car. She never really put anything into the relationship money wise, but she had a great heart and was a very good girl for the most part. Her brother has autism, and I always used to take him to the movies with us and take him out to have fun. I even gave him $500 dollars worth of Polo clothes, and I helped him get a laptop. I even used my credit line to help get this girl a Computer, and a Monitor. She wanted a brand new phone, I went out and got it for her sidekick or whatever it was. I showered her with jealoury and our anniversaries and on birthdays, christmas etc etc. She always wanted an iPod I went out and got it for her. I did everything for this girl, what more could a girl see in a man, if he is willing to do her good, rather than be selfish and do for himself. She trusted me with everything all of her emotions and problems, she was a great catch. Yea we got into fights, and her maturity level was kind of lacking, she always used to get jealous if I talked to other girls etc etc. She was kind of mentally different or whatever, usually has a very bad temper, I don't know she was a crazy latina! But anyway, I went to Florida this December for a great job, she was excited for me and she said we should take a break etc since I was moving away. She was destroyed and I knew it from all the body language and everything, but this job was 1,300 a week and I would be set for life! It was with Pepsi, and in Florida, I tried to get her to move down with me but she wanted to finish up school, and felt like she had to do her own thing. So two months go by, and than we really weren't talking too much I was in my own world with a brand new life, doing great. She started talking to me again out of no where, said that she was pregnant, and I quit my job DROVE 1,500 miles back to New Hampshire from Florida, and to find out that she had lied to me about the whole pregnancy just to get me back. I was bull, cause now I'm back home unemployed and just sitting dwelling about how I screwed everything up over some girl. So I try to act like it doesn't bother me with everything that happens, we keep getting in fights. I finally get some side work this is February and than I removed her as a relationship status on my facebook(which was childish and dumb) because she was angry that I couldn't see her every night, because I had work at 5am everymorning that week. So a week goes by, and like an idiot I try and get back with her after I dumped her. Now she comes over and tells me that she is going to take this opportunity to live her life with no regrets, and get over me finally. Im devastated, I sit there and beg like a dog, crying letting all my emotions flow. I have never cried in my life since I was 12 and I'm 24 years old. She leaves, a day goes by I text her, she responds saying she's sticking to her guns, and she wants me to realize how bad I effed up. So than I let the days go by, texting and calling she ignores it, than on our 4 year anniversary March 19, I sent her two dozen roses, that cost me 180 and I'm unemployed, so it took a lot for me to come up with that. She ignored it, I texted ignored it, I broke down and called her 50 times in a row ignored it. Than I dumped her stuff off at her house that notebook that we had written everything in, at her house with the teddy bear that she used to cuddle with while I was away in Florida. She called me on a private number (cause she changed her number) flipped out, said never ever go to her property again. So after that a I notice trash bags at my house with all my clothes, etc. were talking via e-mail cause she won't give me her number, someone hacked her Facebook and she blamed me, came to me for help with it, but still in the end blamed me for all of it. I helped her shut down the Facebook account, after that couple more days go by more stuff ends up in my driveway in trash bags. Than I put together all her love notes, cards and all stuff that had emotional value it in a trash bag and left it in her driveway. She never talked about it, sent me an e-mail saying hi, etc etc, nothing special. I let time go by etc, than April 16 I sent her an e-mail, saying how its time for me to put my two feet forward, and worry about myself from now own, explaining how I felt betrayed and all my emotions, for closure for myself, and wishing her luck telling her she was a great girl, and she will find a great man in time, very respectful and responsible. She never responded, and its been almost two weeks. But something dire has happen, she burned a teddy bear at a friends bonfire, and had her friend post the pictures of it on Facebook? Seriously, is she doing this for attention or wants a response out of me? Its been almost 2 weeks of complete no contact. What do I do? And why did she burn that and post it on Facebook? HELP!
oh I forgot, she was a huge part of my family. When I was in Florida she would always visit my mother and hang out with my two dogs, for rememberence of me. She was definitely a keeper, but with all that's going on I'm just so jaded. The worst part is I'm unemployed for two months now, and I just sit and dwell, because I don't have money to do anything. Best part is WHILE I was in Florida, she called me asking for money for school cause she needed help, I sent her 300 dollars threw the wal-mart money center, than a week later she needed money for gas, and her girlfriends where having a party, and she needed to get stuff for it, and I sent her another 100 dollars. Gasp, I hate this
