Help me get over my ex please
Dear anyone, me and my ex boyfriend met 8 months ago, we broke up 4 times in a course of 2 months. He was my first everything, first love, frist kiss, first boyfriend, and I have neverliked a guy in my life as much as him, we talked every day at least 2 hrs and it was amazing. At the end I broke up with him because things wer very shaky, for a while I had regretted breaking up with him a lot because if we stayed together I wudve been much happier, and I knew he still liked me afterwards. For the past 6 months I have cried over him at least once a week, things are like a rollercoaster, sometimes we h.u and sometimes we don't talk at all, I know he h.us with other girls , this fact used to hurt me but not anymore for I have gotten used to it, just like I have gotten used to the fact that he h.us with all my friends. I still keep my phone next to me all the time in case he calls, when my phone rings I hope its him calling, I still have the one rose he gave me , the thoguth of him brings tears to my eyes, the last time we h.u wich was very recent- it was differnet that all the other times- it didn't have that feeling of love between us, my eyes wernet even closed, I know he was just using me for so when I got home all I did was cry, I really want to get over him because I know he is over me, people that know I like him know I should get over him as well, I really have tried and its been 8 months that I've liked him, once in awhile I think about getting back with him but I will never really do it, the worst part is he thinks I h.u with other guys when in reality the only guy I ever h.u with is him, I am so stuck on him I could never even imagine being with another guy, I hate sleeping at night because all I do is think about him. I really love him and he doesn't even realize it and when people tell him he doesn't believe them, last night I was hysterically crying for 3 hrs till 1 am, my hoel family woek up and my parents were sitting next to my bed very concerned, he called me and I did not anser wich made me cry more because its rare that he calls, and that I don't anser, its just that I was crying so much I couldn't anser the phoen, I woke up in the mornign and my eyes wer puffy, the hole day I was in a bitter mood and was sleeping in all my clases. I know this is pathetic. I really miss him and want him to care about me but thers nothing ican say to him to make him care.. I guess it's the type of person he is.. his best friend also told me that he never liked me and was just using me for , its hard for me toexcept this fact, I refused to cry today. I need to get over him PLEASE HELP! This weekend I am going to be with him and I need help before I drown in my own tears-
Thanks
Ls