Hi, I am not sure what is happening to me. I used to be a very bright and sharp girl, but about 2 years ago, I think I am getting more and more easy going and do not care everything that is happening around me. I do things for the sake of doing rather than the passion, even hanging out with my boyfriend. I feel really lost and trapped as if I can't let my feelings and emotions out. I'm not sure what is happening to me but after cracking my mind, I guess my past relationship with a girl (I am a girl) when I was 17 left this deep mark in my heart. I was naïve at that time but was very very passionate and deeply in love in her. I was deeply hurt due to her cheating on me. I always thought I had walked out of the shadow but I think I had been running away and giving excuses to myself. I see myself as problematic but I'm not sure what is the main cause to my lost. Regardless of the cause, I hope anyone out there could give me suggestions on how to help myself.. my problem had cause much problem to people who care and love for me... thank you..

I'm not a docter or anything but you might have some mild depression or something. You said that there's a deep mark in your heart,that's usual so you're probably just not over it yet. Have you tried talking to her about it or do you think it would hurt to bad? I think if you go out somewhere you could meet someone you like hanging out with and get mind mind off it you might be able to feel better... almost completely.

Breakups are really hard and can definitely impact your perception of the world.

If it's been awhile and you're still not feeling "normal", you might need to talk to a counselor. A counselor can help you find the root of the problem.

A bad relationship can really scar you but only if you let it. The relationship ended on bad terms because she cheated on you. Don't spend the rest of your life thinking about it. That is in the past. Pick your head up and move on. There are more people out there to meet and/or date. You said you lost your passion. I think I am at the same point in my life. I used to care about what I did, no matter what is was. Now I just feel like I'm going through the motions. What's helping me through this is I've stayed busy. No time to analyze every little thing means the less you can wallow in self pity. Find a hobby, adopt an animal, or try to help others on these boards. Don't limit yourself!