Help I'm addicted to my ex lover he treated me badly in the end, I have access to all his internet accounts, and can see he is sleeping and using women everywhere. I check his emails like 10 times a day and can't let go. Its been 8 months since we broke up, but its controlling me I wish most days I wouldn't wake up, I feel like all my body is missing and life is not worth living with out him. Please help I don't know what to do. Im existing not living.

Hi Dollylove.

Did you know that checking someone else's e-mail is actually a criminal offense. And yes, I am saying this to scare you.

If I were you I would ask your EX to change his e-mail password so that you aren't 'tempted' to check his e-mail any more.

I know how hard it is... after I broke up with my ex I found myself looking at his Facebook page every day, until one day I got up the courage and just deleted him.

There are some great stickies in the relationship forum about going NC (Non-Contact) It is the best possible thing you can do.
Make sure there is no way you an contact him or check his e-mails or Facebook or anything and just start fresh.

It will take a while to get over him, there is no doubt there, he will always be a memory, but you need to make sure he is just that... a memory not a constant reminder of your pain.

Your post kind of freaks me out, but I am not here to judge you. He is not something you want to go back to, especially if he treated you badly. Just do as Shaz said and get him out of your life. Tell him to change his things because you know his passwords and you don't want anything to get blamed on you. That or you can talk to him and tell him the truth. Break-ups can be hard, but you will eventually move on and feel better.