I tried to answer to another thread but it is just jumping me around all over so its probably me not knowing what I am doing...
I want to say I am beside myself with hurt on not seeing my grandchildren for so many months, it's a long , complicating story involving hate , vengeance , getting back at one another (both mom and dad) and the mom is my daughter and she can't stand me, etc...
These stories on here have truly blessed me to the heart of my soul... thank you! God bless you all as I cry, I am so so done. I haven't even been to church lately or around anyone else because its killing me to see everyone else have a loving time together" and I don't have my grandkids that for years the bond we had was such a strong one that everyone believed them to be my own. This is something I thought I was alone on, I have been looking and searching for others and just now came across this, amazing! How God leads us to things and brings us through them as well... thank you again for I needed to read these. May God always give you the strength to stand and face your storms and his arms to comfort you through the hurts...

If you are asking for advice - and this is a question and answer site - my suggestion would be, depending on the State you live in, that you file for visitation with the Court.

As far as turning away from your religion, maybe this is a question for one of the religious boards - ?