I have been molested most of my life. I lost most of my friends. I can't seem to be okay living in one place for more than a few years. I run from my problems. I'm emotional. I can't keep a relationship. My family doesn't act like a family and its killing me. Everyone in my family hates each other.I feel useless and worthless.I never feel good enough.im a waste of air. Am I crazy?

Hi, britterbaby!

What sort of good things have happened in your life?

Thanks!

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Originally Posted by britterbaby

am i crazy?

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NO!

Your not crazy.

You are emotional,you are in need of council.

You are reaching out(at least on this site) for council.

Crazy people don't see the need to reach out for help,they aren't all that self-aware, you are.

For some reason you see things as 'I can't.. ' ,Perhaps looking at what you CAN do is a new direction.

I was wondering the same thing about myself. I was a victim of rape and I'm an alcoholic and my life has been spinning out of control since the attack.. I hope you find an answer, I think it helps if you push your mind away from reality sometimes, I feel like it just gives you a break to relax and not worry about things. Also there is always someone out there who cares about you .
You should tell someone about something's that are going through your mind, start with something small then when you know you are able to trust them with a heavier secret, just let it all spill out, I guarantee you will feel so much better.
After you tell someone just seek some help. A school guidance counciler or an adult who has had some experience with difficult situations.
I wish you the best of luck.
If you find that you can open you heart a little to someone like you mother or your sister or someone close to you, things seem a little bit easier.
Often after a tragic experience or just some depression we all seem to think that we can handle everything on our own, we can't though.
The reality of it all is that comfort is needed at times like these and we can't handle our thoughts and sadness all on our lonesome. We have to embrace help. Embrace a new beginning.
A homeless man who smiled like he had all the riches of the world in his pocket, once told me:
When you've reached hell keep going.
That stuck with me and I've been going by those words that were first spoken from a man named winstin churchill.
I hope you the best,
Goodluck to you.

I think if you think you have mental problem you should talk to you doctor it sounds like you need some counsoling and a good anti depresent I to was melsted as a child by my father my sister and I both and had a mother who was a paronod schitzoprinic and grew up in a very disfuncunal family and thought that everyone hated me growing up always had low selfesteam growing up I think you should getsome counsoling I think it would really help you.

I just want to share that I adopted a child years ago, and he came with this huge file from doctors and psychologists, etc. about all the things he was diagnosed with - all kinds of psychological problems. Truth is, he had none of those problems. The problem was that he had been in an abusive, neglectful, hurtful environment and his behaviors allowed him to survive within that insane environment.

You are not crazy but the way you have been treated and the environment you live in certainly is from your description.

Talk to your school counselor about your need for some support and someone you can talk to about a variety of issues you feel are holding you back, and give someone a chance to help. If you are being molested presently or still live with that offender or within their reach, report it immediately so you can get into a safe situation.

You will have some work to do to turn your life around but it's very sane to say, "my childhood was a train wreck, I want a good life, I think I need help to process and move past all of this". So do that, and don't carry a bad childhood forward - you can have a great adulthood.

I feel Like Im crazy I bette up my ex girlfriend, on more than one ocation, we split. She took me back. I went right back to doing it. I want to get help and I don't know how.

Dwreak08, look into anger management classes and counseling immediately and until you find more productive ways to express your frustration and manage stress, don't date anyone. You are taking your worst hurts out on the people closest to you, and need to address those hurts, and possibly fears. You can contact your local hospital and ask for a referral, or call your insurance company and ask who you can go to for counseling services. If you don't have insurance, another option can be to call your county health department and find out if you qualify for any services, or if there are free programs for anger management. Good for you for seeking help - follow through because it will really improve your life dramatically if you do what is recommended and stick with the program.