I once met a lady almost five years ago. Very pretty lady that I see walking on the road for years.One day it was raining and I stop to give her a ride. She accepted the ride and I ask her where she was going,she told me she was going to town so I took her there.We had a good conversation and I gave her my number and told her if she needed a ride back to work she can call me. I waited but she called me an hour later and told me she was at work and she got back safe. Anyway we became friends after that and started talking she then told me that she was married so I told her I will back off but she told me that it was OK we could be friends.
We started talking more and more each day till she eventually became open with me and starts telling me about her personal life. I became so sorry for her and I started caring so much for her. I always try to comfort her so she could forget about all the unhappy moments at home. Our friendship became stronger and stronger and reached to a point that we fell in love. She is 20 yrs older than me but age don't really matter when it comes to love. She use to have to walk almost two miles each day sometimes more,rain or sunshine just because her husband don't wants to be in the traffic to pick up there own daughter from school.I always put out myself to help her and her daughter one day he found out someone was giving her a ride he got upset. I had to stop but we always had our friendship going. She would come an talk to me when anything go wrong. She could not go out, she could not talk to people,she could not sing on the choir at chursh,she could not go to the gym etc. One day I said to her why don't you get a divorce and she told me she asked for one and he did not want to and also she wanted to make her daughter happy.(her daughter see them fighting all the time so I don't know how she would be happy) Anyway I never try to push her to leave but I try to make her happy.She promise me that after her daughter finish school she would eventually leave we have our up and down because remember no relationship is perfect I really would not finish if I am to say everything but let me get to the point.
I promise to myself also god that I will never leave her and I will take how ever long to give her the real love that I know she deserves. Having to let her go because her husband don't want to se her being loved really hurts knowing that I made a comitment to myself and to her also. I think she also let material things(the house they built together) get to her and not thinking about her happiness. It reach to a point that I feel like ending my life. I cannot live without her don't matter how I try I really don't know what to do, am scared of hurting her in a way of doing something bad to myself.Can anyone talk to her for me? Is there anyone I can talk to I cried an cried an cried I cannot take the pain I am in I need help can someone help me please am scared to death.
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