Hi,
I'll try to make this short... My grandmother raised me and we have always had a very special bond.I always knew I would take her death hard and even went so far as to tell her that when she died she would have to somehow come to me and let me know she was around.Well two weeks after we found out she had cancer she died.She had never ,ever been sick except for those two weeks.I am utterly shattered.The pain is unbearable.She was my heart and soul.For whatever reason she has not come to me yet in any way.I don't know what to do.I am lost.