First Sight Love = Fail. She Has a Boyfriend. Help me Forget.
Hi, my name is Lucas, sorry for the title if it sucks, didn't know what to write. Well let me get you inside my life first. I'm 18, I'm currently at a special HS course where I learn mechanics along with all the basic stuff, going to college next year. I'm working too along with studying, it's been hard but I'm finding ways to manage it. I'm a computer addicted, I work with tech support, I love to draw, I'm a 3D modeler and I'm obsessed with videogames since I was 5 but this year I can't find the time to play.
Not long ago I noticed a extremely beautifull girl at my HS, model-like if you know what I mean, and since then I started to look at her every time she passed by, 99% of the time she would stare back at me and look right inside of my eyes, that gave me goosebumps, I wonder if she was thinking: "oh there is that psycho again, God!". I tried talking to her one day when I passed by but I froze to death, like I was jumping from a plane, next day I felt like a bigass looser. Anyway, I started to dig everything I wanted to know about her and behind the awesome looks I found out that there was an awesome person too! But then I learned the shocking truth, she had a boyfriend for the past 2 years. I though , god dammit what a fail, even before I talked to her, I found out I can't really.
So I need some tips to help me get over her, I added her into my social network website just in case someday if I'm avaible and her too we can hook up sometime. My life's a mess right now, I have no one to talk, every time I try to talk to my mom she makes the conversation about her and her issues so I just have to sit and listen. Sorry to throw all that into y'all but I have to lift this weight out of my shoulder.
I'm trying to forget her really, I have no intentions to steal her, It's childish and selfish, whoever does that is an , someday karma will get you. I just want to go with the flow, but now she is inside my freaking head.
Sorry for the crappy english (I'm south-american) and all the cursing. Thanks for the advice in advance.