So I'm 17 and been cutting for about 3 years. I live with a bipolar mom who doesn't do anything except tell me what I'm doing wrong and stuff. I have been abused emotionaly and physicly and kind of would say raped but it was consential but persuasive. My friends think I have bipolar and stuff. I think so too. I see a crisis counsler but no one but my friends know I cut. Well some friends. And I just don't know how to stop cutting and get out of this depression. Everything goes wrong in my life and I just come back to cutting and stuff. Please help!

By not telling the crisis counselor you enable yourself to continue the cutting, without exposing EVERYTHING to people who are there to help,how are they going to help you effectively?

Yes,I do understand the shame.I also understand the depression.I am bipolar,I do get it.

You are at the age where I wish I would have done things like you are doing, writing on a website,, they weren't around when I was your age:(

My feeble attempts at getting help resulted in very little to nothing.WHY?Because I didn't know what to say to the therapists.(That and they didn't really know what to ask me either... )

If you can,try to understand the most disturbing issue first.Is it home?Mother?Peer pressure?School?The actual talks with the crisis counselor?The emotional abuse?Physical abuse?

All these things have to be prioritized.

Then one at a time,they need to be addressed,dealt with,coping skills learned to help you NOT to cut over them.

I wasn't a cutter,I was a suicide person, myself loathing and actions for release was to take many drugs/drinking, which only made me more depressed.A slow suicide to be sure.

I believe that understanding your red flags, that which set you into the cutting mode,and finding healthy ways to cope with those stresses is the answer you are looking for.Understand,, it takes effort to get better.You didn't get to this point overnight,so don't have unrealistic expectations that this can be cleared up with a few small steps.You have to WANT to change,and keep to your want/need while life is still going on.

Hope this helped:)

I just want to say that I can relate to you because I use to be a cutter. At first it felt good to hurt myself but you know what's NOT fun? I ended up cutting too deep and I didn't stop bleeding for 2 days and you know what happened? My ankle got INFECTED! It is NOT fun to get infected! I still have the scar too from 7 years ago.

It's normal for human to feel depressed but tell yourself this: There are people out in the world who have it worse than you. You have a roof over your head, clothes and food. There are teens out there who are your age who are taking care of their siblings or selling their body.

Try to think positive. Don't pull yourself into depression. Keep yourself busy. Joining clubs, activates or just being with friends will keep your mind off it! Keeping a journal is a great way to write down your feelings.

When I use to get depressed a lot and cut myself, I use to write, draw, place stickers, lyrics into my journal.

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Originally Posted by Lanichu

I just want to say that I can relate to you because I use to be a cutter. At first it felt good to hurt myself but you know what's NOT fun? I ended up cutting too deep and I didn't stop bleeding for 2 days and you know what happened? My ankle got INFECTED! It is NOT fun to get infected! I still have the scar too from 7 years ago.

It's normal for human to feel depressed but tell yourself this: There are people out in the world who have it worse than you. You have a roof over your head, clothes and food. There are teens out there who are your age who are taking care of their siblings or selling their body.

Try to think positive. Don't pull yourself into depression. Keep yourself busy. Joining clubs, activates or just being with friends will keep your mind off of it! Keeping a journal is a great way to write down your feelings.

When I use to get depressed a lot and cut myself, I use to write, draw, place stickers, lyrics into my journal.

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I actually don't really have food. My mom sits on the computer and does nothing, no shopping or anything.