I have been having emotional problems for the past 3 years, I was a several points suicidal, luckely I have overcome that part. I was in a relationship that was my first, I jusmped in too quick. I'm 20 years old and am currently 8 months pregnant with his child, after several months of emotional abuse I ended it. I have just recently gotten back in the saddel so to speak, and am with a really great guy who wants to be there for both me and my baby. He wants to be a good boyfriend and father to my son when he is born.
The past little while we have been going through some financial problems and I have been taking it really hard. I'm no longer working due to being sick all the time, and he is working his butt off but having nothing left to show for it. I am currently on anti depressants due to my last about of emotional distress and I don't know why but they just don't seem to cut it anymore.
I have been going through a really hard time with being extremely self conscious and judgemental towards myself. I end up apologizing for every little thing even when I don't make a mistake. I cry when I am left alone and constantly ask my boyfriend if he is either mad at me or getting annoyed with me, for no reason. I doubt my mental stability all the time, I don't know if its just the pregnancy hormones or if I am truly a manic depressive. I'd assume the later.
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Hey there :)

Look at the positive side of things. You are pregnant :) - you are strong enough to have left the men who emotionally abused you and you NOW found a really great guy.
Keep reminding yourself of these 3 things you have achieved so far and be proud of yourself. I would be proud if I were you.

Financial problems are a part of life unfortunately and I can 100% guarantee that you are not alone. Right now my husband and I try to hard to meet ends with bills, mortgages and also study work we both do. Its been a while since we went out and enjoyed ourselves. Take things slowly, 1 thing at a time, and all will get better, I'm sure.

Just 1 thing is it wise to carry on taking your anti-depressents whilst pregnant?

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Originally Posted by cheyenne_terrine

i have been having emotional problems for the past 3 years, i was a several points suicidal, luckely i have overcome that part. i was in a relationship that was my first, i jusmped in too quick. i'm 20 years old and am currently 8 months pregnant with his child, after several months of emotional abuse i ended it. i have just recently gotten back in the saddel so to speak, and am with a really great guy who wants to be there for both me and my baby. he wants to be a good boyfriend and father to my son when he is born.
the past little while we have been going through some financial problems and i have been taking it really hard. i'm no longer working due to being sick all the time, and he is working his butt off but having nothing left to show for it. i am currently on anti depressants due to my last bout of emotional distress and i dont know why but they just dont seem to cut it anymore.
i have been going through a really hard time with being extremely self conscious and judgemental towards myself. i end up apologizing for every little thing even when i dont make a mistake. i cry when i am left alone and constantly ask my boyfriend if he is either mad at me or getting annoyed with me, for no reason. i doubt my mental stability all the time, i dont know if its just hte pregnancy hormones or if i am truely a manic depressive. i'd assume the later.
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Sweety, pregnancy can really do a number on your hormones. You are in your 8th month, so most of it is behind you. Talk to your doctor immediately about your antidepressants not working and how you have been feeling. Try and take things one day at a time and treat yourself better. Allow yourself to be human and make mistakes. Try to imagine having a friend going through what you are going through and feeling like you are feeling...Would you think she was crazy or judge her harshly when she tells you about her life? Most likely you would hug her and tell her you care about her and these things she is saying about her self are not true. You would do that because you believe the best about your friend. But it doesn't sound like you belive the best about yourself. If someone said something bad about your friend you would probably get angry and tell them not to talk about your friend like that. My point is don't receive a bad report about yourself. Don't receive the negative self talk about yourself. When something negative comes into your thoughts like...I'm crazy, bipolar, stupid, ugly, or whatever the negative thoughts may be...treat yourself at least as good as you would a friend and stop the negative thoughts right there. Say to these negative thoughts, get away! I will not listen to this crap! Then focus on something positive. This will soon become a habit. barbara

I went through the same feelings when I was pregnant-I think doctors always concentrated on "post" partum depression, but it can start during the pregnancy too. Keep thinking about that gorgeous baby you are going to hold in your arms soon.
Tell your doc everything- you should be having appointments every week or two weeks (? can't remember at 8 months). Don't let them just process you through- those appointments can get very standard so you may have to stop your OB and say "Help!". Once you have the baby your life gets completely absorbed by the bundle of joy, and you won't likely take time to get help for yourself. Do it now while you are able.
You have the rest of your life to worry about money, and you will, so take care of yourself right now.
Congratulations on the baby!

One more thing- there is WIC and other types of help for you if you look around on the web and in your community. That can really help you out financially. See how many people can give you a shower. Ask someone to head it up if no one has voluteered. You could get one from your friends, one from family, etc. Everyone does it for each other so don't be afraid to ask! You'll be giving or attending showers for someone else sometime. It's the "pay it forward" kind of thing..