I don't know how to talk to people
When I was in high school, I was a very outgoing person and had a lot of friends. Right after high school I started a relationship with a very jealous and emotionally abusive girl. During our 3 year relationship I distanced myself from all my friends because she only wanted me to be with her and her friends. When the relationship ended I no longer had any friends and I became extremely depressed.
I went to a psychiatrist but it never really helped. I got some antidepressants and that worked for a while. I started seeing another girl, but my ex-girlfriend would find out where we were and show up. So that didn't work out.
In the 8 years since then, I made very few friends and basically have been depressed and reclusive.
I was feeling pretty good this last summer, I got a new job and was more of my old happy self. I made some new friends and started dating someone. Everything seemed to be going pretty good.
My job became very draining and I started to become moody and depressed. I kind of dumped my friends and would only do things with my new girlfriend. She had issues connecting to people, and a fear of intimacy. That combined with my neediness, depression and Valentines day ended our relationship.
I quit my job, which has relieved a lot of my stress. I met a few people, but I never know what to say anymore. I pretty much lost all my social skills. My conversations always just kind of come to a halt. I'm still pretty depressed and that also has a lot to do with it.
So how do I talk to people without coming off boring and depressing when I don't really have anything to say.