I'm going nuts - I'll try to make this short. I was with someone 4 3 yrs (paul)and I loved with all my heart and we shared everything - we did everything together hell we even worked together - till it closed down we were bf's we broke up do to his drinking (he has been good for 2 yrs now) - when we split I started dating some1(larry) and we have been dating on and off 4 2 yrs I keep going bk to paul but then larry pulls me back in maybe do to the money I don't know and what he can do or is willing to do for me.. I know I'm not as happy as I was with paul but I just can't get away from larry. Paul has waited for me for 2 yrs now and would do anything for me and I want to be with him but also want to be with larry. Larry is building a house and would like me to move in I don't really want to but my kids do well some of them do. That is another problem my kids like both my family likes both. Sometimes when I'm with larry all I can think about is paul - no paul and I r not sleeping together and he would not even think about it till I am done totally with larry. I have broke up with larry many times just to be with paul but I can't keep doing this and larry said one more time will be the last. He knows about the reasons I broke up with him was because of the other1. Larry is a sweet guy but isn't good looking at all which I think is another reason why I keep going bk to the other. I was marry 4 19 yrs to a drunk and stayed because of the kids I think that is why I'm so scared to go bk with paul and I am holding onto larry because he's safe. I don't know can someone out there help me out - I'm in love with 1 guys and with other. Paul and I have talked and he said that when I do leave larry we are going to have to hide us dating again because of both families his because all the hurt I put him though and my so they don't get mad because I left a good guy for a drunk again. Any clue what I should do - should I just stay with larry and never look bk