My mother died when I was4. I'm 14 now. And my father didn't care enough to look after me incidentaly he ran of when he heard about me. So, I live with my grandmother. Its hard living with her. The generation gap raises its ugly head all the time and there is lack of communication. I'm allowed to do nothing. I can't have any friends except for adults or go anywhere. Whereas other children have a curfew I'm just not allowed to do anytinhg. My grandother talks all the time never allows me to speak so I don't really have anyone to confide in. To top it off I'm from england that's where my family is. She moved my to trinidad where she lives so haven't get to see my family for years. I cry all the time and I'm miserable and I get no solace. Various people have spoken to us but the situation has not improved. She's stubborn. I don't think I can really make progress living in this situation. SHe's allways threatening to put me in a home telling me I'm ungrateful but frankly she's just telling me what she's done but she does not care for my immediate needs. Since I have nothing to take away as punnishment she even denies my food sometimes albeit rarly. And last year she stopped me form going to svhooool for like 33 days. I just want out. My sister invited me to live with her she's 24 and willing she understands me and I would get to be near my relatives and away from the situation. The only reason I can think that my grandmother is like this is that when she was younger certain things happened to her it must have affected her deeply and she old too.
