I am a married woman with two children and a loving husband. Offlate I started chatting with a 27 year old guy from US basically from india on a social networking site. I never mentioned him my correct age and when he asked for my pic I showed him a pic of an upcoming actress which he couldn't recognise. Slowly our friendship grew and we got so addicted to chatting. He developed feelings towards me and even I felt the same for him.. though we never met he proposed to me and discussed about marriage and children too. Even when he went that far I never revealed about me. He fell head over heels in love with the pic thinking that its me. Even I developed strong feelings towards him even though I know its not possible. Recently he saw the pic online and confronted me. He said he trusted me and I broke his heart. I mentioned to him that I never meant to hurt him and finally he said its tooo difficult for him to take this and signed off saying bye. Later I gave offline messages saying sorry and for forgiveness. He has not responded. Meanwhile I started missing him so much that I became so depressed and developed suicidal tendencies. My family is worried about my health and I cannot reveal the reason to them. I sit and cry all the time remembering him. He's a gem of a person and I broke his heart. I am worried about him a lot. If he says he has forgiven me I ll be much relieved. Please help me... I am totally depressed.

You lied from the beginning,you had an emotional affair with a man other then your husband.

He most likely feels very let down and duped.

Channel your energy back into your marriage and children,keep busy and don't try to contact him again.

If your feeling very depressed I suggest councilling.

Your deciet has caught up with you, and worse you heve cheated on your husband. Yes you will have to bear the guilt but its not to late to be a good mom and wife. That's more importtant than the forgiveness of a stranger.

I am amazed that your more concerned with a stranger than the love you robbed your family of.

Come on, you did wrong, and need to start doing the right thing whether he forgives you, or not.

A couple of tips for using this site. First the subject line is for a BRIEF description of your question. As you've learned the body of your question goes in the text box below.

Second, please proof read your questions before posting. Some of your post borders on incoherent. For example you say "a 27 year old guy from US basically from india". Which is it?

But as Tal said you got caught in a web of deceit. Too often people don't realize there are flesh and blood people on the other side of the screen. You also need to stop cyber flirting.

You lied and cheated, not only to your husband but so some poor person online that trusted you to be single, to be the person in the photo.

They will never truly forgive you, and will merely move on more carefully to another relationship.

Were you planning on leaving your husband and children to be with him, if not why were you even chatting with him to start with.

You basically got what you deserved for doing the evil deeds you did to two good men,

It is time to start working on your marriage and forget about someone else

Just how do you know he's a "gem"? He could be a raving lunatic. How do you fall in love eith a man you've never met? Where were your children while you were chatting with this guy? I think you need to tell your family what's going on. "Confession is Good for the Soul". You need to throw your computer out the window, because you will contact him again and it will be the same thing over again. Get your priorities straight. Husband+Children+Home!!

I suggest you stop living in some fantasy 'la-la land' and start living in the land of reality.

As you have experienced - living in a fantasy is like eating a feast conjured out of nothing - it's not very satisfying, and you end up even hungrier.

Cut all contact with the cyber-lover. Allowing him to propose to you and continuing to make him believe you were available and beautiful was dishonest in the extreme. How would you feel if someone did it to you?

Clearly something is missing in your life - I would suggest you put much time and effort into discovering what it is and reconnecting with your hapless husband and children. You are living a lie and if you continue to act like a fool you'll lose everything.