I am so lazy I just don't know what to do. I am going to college and I try to do the most basic homework (you know 4-10 page essays on things). I don't even start them, I start reading the material, I get overwhelmed really fast, I can't concentrate, the work doesn't get done. I don't even start the project and I feel like I have too much work to do or something. I get to the point where I would rather kill myself than face the work. So basically here is how it goes.
I get mentally prepared to do the work.
I pick up an essay to read it.
I try to understand what it is saying.
I feel like it is going to take too long to finish, and that I won't have enough time to do anything.
I get depressed because I can't make myself do it.
I want kill myself because I am going to fail my class and ruin my life.
I put the book down.
I do absolutely nothing, until the next day where I think I can get everything done.
Repeat!
This is my second year of college, I failed 2 classes last semester because of this. I am going to fail 2 more if this keeps up. It is a serious problem that I need to take care of now. I mean right now. Like I got to get this paper in tomarrow and I can't get any mental strength to do it. I mean I really don't do any thing else with my time, I play with my pet till I get bored, play video games till I get bored, watch TV till I get bored. I don't even like TV, video games, or my pet and they take up most of my time, I don't have fun I just do it to kill time.