Originally Posted by
Kezza1
Ok... so this all makes me sound like I do nothing else but go to bars, I only go every 3 or 4 weeks on a Fri night or something, its not like I think Im 18 and go every Fri and Sat night. Also, I would never ever leave my children, I love them more than I ever thought possible to love somebody, they are my world, please dont think Im a bad mother, we have lots of love and fun together :) If we were to seperate, I wouldnt hire babysitters just so I could go out to bars, Im not obsessed or anything and also I always put my childrens welfare first so I would never be a mum that brings random men home...Id be scared for their emotional welfare but also just their safety...so dont worry Im not like that! Were not going to seperate though...Im starting counselling and so is my husband. Since I wrote this post the other day, weve talked properly about all of this because I really just had to be completely honest with him, its too hard otherwise, not to mention tiring! Weve only been here just under 2 years, so itsveen a bit hard being away from home so I think thats contributed a little as wee, even though we love it here, just being away from friends and family and support is very hard. At home we'd socialise a lot , but I think my husband has found it hard to make friends here, its also a bit tricky with noone to babysit but hey we'll find a way! Thanks everyone for your thoughts and advice :)