What's wrong With Me, Do I Want Too Muchh?
Hey, well here's my story.. lol. I have been dating my boyfriend for a lil' over a year, we've been so great.. til' he went off to college in a different state. I'm not saying we're going to break up, or that it's even an option.. because I am in complete love with him. You've got no idea, it's so real. He's someone I look at and see not only him but me in him, and my future with him, he's so amazing. It's something that can't be explained in words, you'd just have to see us together... ANYWAY, lol. Lately while he's gone I just miss him so much, normally he comes home everyother weekend, but while he's gone we fight at least once, lol. Not like badly, but we argue.. and I know it's because I miss him much, and him me.. lol. But we always feel so bad after, because we're so in love to the point where we just hate it so much, but we find ouselves doing it, and it hurts.. it's tearing ME apart.. lol. Does anyone have anytips on how to not fight as much, because it's for NO reasonnn, a lot! ://
Then there's another situation I want to get engaged and he says he does too, lol. But I have had a lot of experiences throughout my life that keep my from believing something's, lol. Because I just can't believe someone would want that with me, lol. It's like a trust issue.. lol. Any advice with that??
Then another, I am just so afraid I am going to lose him lately.. for about NO reason, cause he's always telling me he loves me.. and he doesn't understand why I feel that way.. because he doesn't, lol. It's just him being away so muchh.. lol. And I am not saying that we're not doing good with our long distance, it's not as bad as this post makes it seem, lol. I just want some advice.. lol.
P.S.
I have anxiety diorder, and there's a lot going on in my life, and I need to know how to not take it out on himmm, cause I think that's why we fight so muchhh.. I miss him, and I am so worried about not only us.. the rest of my life and family/friends.. ://