Over-eating again, cant control myself
I don’t know what is happening to me these days.
To begin with, I am an emotional eater, and in the past few months I was really sad all the time, (really all the time) and I ate a lot that I gained some wait. Then I went through a phase where I ate nothing at all, and I started to get thinner, than when I saw that I am not that fat anymore, I began to overeat again, like I wanted to eat for those times when I didn’t eat, I didn’t satisfy myself with a bar of chocolate, but I ate 4 or 5 repetitively!
Sometimes I try exercising, or eating salads and all, and than that same afternoon, or a week later, I end up overeating again.
I excused myself (I know it is wrong) that maybe because I felt lonely, and I was really sad and I also was sad from a boy I used to like & go out with that didn’t showed interest anymore but I really wanted him.
But now, I was really happy, I succeeded in eating properly and all.
What I wished for; to be truly loved, I got it, and I really was happy. But all of a sudden I sometimes become sad because I know this will not last (I don’t know why, maybe because every time when there is something good, there is always something bad ready to ruin it).
I bought new swimsuit just yesterday and I made a commitment to myself to eat healthy and exercise regularly.
.. Yesterday mum bought a huge packet of chocolate, and there I go again. I overate a lot!
I did it again today. First I ate 2 small bars of chocolate, then I felt guilty and did some exercise. Then I ate lots and lots of chocolate!
I don’t know what I am doing. It seems like I can't control myself (I used to feel this way before)
Sorry for writing too long,
Any help please?
I appreciate a lot any help given :)