I am not allowed to expresss my feelings without causing a huge fight, and always get responses such as "it's not my fault", it's dumb for you to feel that way, "i did nothing for you to feel that way, or a laugh or smirk that causes me to withdraw to another room, or not want to be around at all, and yet it is always my fault that it ends in a fight, when I really can't stand to be around nor do I want to because of the things that are said or done to make me feel the way I do, what can I do??

Perhaps it is not that you express but how you express, or even when.

You two most certainly have one of the more common issues, communication. There is no magic pill or cure, and what you are doing now is not working

I would recommend two things, get a copy of a book called "love languages" for you and your wife ( a copy for each) this book has changed the lives of 1000's of couples.
Next get counseling, I perfer one from a religious view point of your choice

That your wife 'won't allow' you to express your feelings, and when you do you are dismissed, ridiculed, and reduced to jello, is a horrible place to be in.

While you are offering your thoughts and feelings, she rejects you. She has no interest in communicating in a meaningful way, which is very sad, and terribly unfair.

Communication doesn't always come easy for some. To behave as she does is to essentially put a stop to even trying to understand you, your problems together, and her lack of skill in responding in a mature, meaningful way.

Her being a 'bully' in controlling what gets said and what is not allowed to be said, could mask other things, like fear of facing the truth, or an unwillingness or uncertainty of how to handle problems. Putting an end to any conversations pretty much lets her off the hook to address them.

Please seek counselling. Communication skills, or lack therof, is one of the most common problems in any relationship. It is really the building block of a good, solid relationship.

You have to start building somewhere, why not try counselling to get some guidance in how to do that.