Hi I am a 20 yr old that did a horrible thing 4 days ago. Me and my ex girlfriend got drunk and got into a fight. She ended up punching me in my face 10 times and then threw beer on me and spit in my face. I lost control of my anger and blacked out and ended up hitting her. I'm not here to ask for help for the pain I'm going through because I deserve it. I'm just scared that I'm never going to be able to find someone else because I'm afraid of what if I black out again. What should I do