Why is my depression getting worse?
I am diagnosed with major depression disorder. Twenty+ years of my life have been an almost daily struggle. I currently am taking 120 mg. Cymbalta, 150 mg. Lamotrigine, 20 mg. Paroxetine per day and 2 mg. Lorazapem each night to sleep. Recently, my Mother replaced me at her business with her niece. My mom and I had quite a few personal problems with each other. I found out she sneaked and lied in the process of replacing me. I was part of the 'family business' for 30 years, on and off. She has definiterly always given favoritism to this niece over me, in our family lives. I know not working at the business, with my mom, is probably a blessing. However, the way she accomplished replacing me and now she and my 2 brothers are spitefully upset at me for expressing my disappointment in their 'talking behind my back' together to come up with how to deal with replacing me. This all could've been handled so much more humanely. But to talk to them only means they will flare up at me again and again over this subject. My husband, kids and I usually spend Christmas with them. However, this year Christmas will be with my husband and 2 daughters, only. I uncontrollably cry with a helpless and hopeless feeling. I don't know how to get a job I would love to do in addition to my substitute teaching. I need something for me... but I feel like a lost soul.
