Bf doesn't want sex as much as I do
I'm 22 & he's 34. We have sex like 4, 5x a week, sometimes more. But I want it like all the time. I feel like we used to have sex a lot more... but I don't know. It's been a year, maybe it's normal?
I've gained weight because of medicine and getting off drugs since we've been together. (so it's not just that I got fat for no reason) When I was skinny he always said I should gain weight. And now he says he loves how I look & I look the best I've ever looked. But I think he's lying, because he knows if he said anything else, I'd cry. I've always been extremely self-conscious about my body. What if he's not attracted to me anymore because I let myself go and I don't exercise or diet. But neither does he... so that's probably not it, right? Every time I see him looking at me, all I can think is that he's looking at how fat and gross I am. =(
When I bring it up, he gets mad because I get upset and say "You never have sex with me." And it's usually been like 2 days at the most. I should probably quit saying that, but it feels like forever. He says we have sex all the time, and more than most people do. And that when I get upset over it, it makes him not want it. I guess because I look desperate? I mean if I try to turn him on, he wants it, but I'm just not used to that. I never really had to try to turn people on. Plus when you take into the fact that I hate my body now, it's really hard. I mean I know how to be sexy. I used to dance, but I was also a lot skinnier and drunker.
I just wish he wanted me all the time, too. Why do you think he doesn't?