Just found out I have HVP !
First of all, I am very scared and feared for my life. I have made a bunch of mistakes in my life, all of them leading up to this. I know I need to tell this guy I have been seeing, but I cannot bring myself to do it. I have never in a million years have had to tell someone I gave them a std. When I was 16 years old I was raped, and when I went to the doctor I found out the guy gave me chylmida and trich. After that I was pretty traumtized about stds, and was always going to the doctor to be checked. Now I just went to the doctor for test results, I was so worried about curable stds and HIV, and I was happy not to have those things, and the doctor informed me with I was HVP POISTIVE ! I always thought this was cancer, and on top of that. I am at high risk for cervical cancer. This all is a smack in the face. I don't even know who would have gaven it to me, not to metion why someone couldn't tell me they did give it to me. When I was younger I made a lot of mistakes, I've dealt with addiction all my life, but this past year I haven't had sex in months, and I finially decieded it was time, being the dumb adult I am I agreed to use no portection. And now... I don't know how I am going to confess up to this. He is wondering why I cannot answer the phone and talk to him. I need advice right now, advice on what to say, and advice on my hopes for this. I am scared. Very very in fear for my life.