What a mess and in a lot of pain
Hey guys me and my ex called it quits yesterday because she felt it wasn't meant to be, and I didn't really want to argue about it since I always thought we shouldn't really talk anymore anyway
Long story... here we go
Met her when I was 18, at the beginning I told her I wouldn't hurt her(I feel stupid for this cause really every relationship has problems), but yea at first the relationship was great, but I started to talk to other girls that I liked and was pretty angry at my relationship for some reason cause perhaps it wasn't what I expected (it was my first relationship and she's been in a couple)
I decided to stop talking to other girls and just work it out with her(this went on for 2 years), wed breakup once in a while only to get back soon after
Now this is probably the key problem for me, I went to see my family for 2 months and she cheated on me while I was gone(technically broke up with me while I was on my trip without my consent pretty much and I was so mad that during that time I talked to another girl just online cause I was lonely)
I come back and find out what she did, I was upset and asked how she could do this and said she was extremely sorry, so for the next 2 years(WOW) she's constantly trying to win me back... during this time of pain and sorrow I ended up sleeping with a girl I used to like but never got into a relationship because I guess I still cared about my ex
I never told her what I did until we broke up like 4 years in(like 8 months ago?) and she felt betrayed and deceived, and felt like she was a fool for not knowing... rightly so I guess...
We broke up during that time and I felt depressed and somehow was able to win her back... but again she told me she slept with a guy during that time, which I really didn't mind at that time for some reason
But yea yesterday we went our separate ways crying, lol, and now I have a lot of regret of all the stupid things I did, but at the same time I was like 18 years old, lol, how smart could one be at that age(not saying all aren't intelligent obviously)
This all probably sounds like a mess, and I'm currently experiencing those SICK symptoms of having difficulties eating and such, plus my mom isn't even in town cause she's taking care of my aunt in the u.s. however she is coming home soon so maybe that will help