My name is michellle in 5 months I have managed both of my twin boys and know a boyfriend who has just turned his back on me , you he hurting to, nut I am all f -------, alome and would love a hug anything. So I've gone back to coke,, caught myself speedballing the otherday, was shocked I haven't done that for years... I hurt so bad I want to dye... I can't take this pain... WHAt DO I DO

Where are your kids?

You need to get help. Go to a detox center, get clean first. Then you should get into rehab. After that, get, and stay, in a 12 step program like Narcotics Anonymous.

I too, am an addict. However, I did something about my addiction to painkillers. I am clean and sober now because of these steps.

You KNOW that you have a PROBLEM. It's your responsibility to get help.

Find a detox center, or Psychiatric hospital near you, TODAY.

GOD bless you.

I lost both of the boys, I wasn't using then I eas so good to stay clean, but it didn't matter and right now I want to use and no one will talk me out of it, that's how I hide from myself.

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Originally Posted by mishelly3

I lost both of the boys, i wasnt using then i eas so good to stay clean, but it didint matter and right now i want to use and no one will talk me out of it,, thats how i hide from myself.

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You will die if you continue using.

I know the game all too well.

Have you heard of Suboxone?

Michelle, I see by your other post that your two sons DIED, I thought that you lost custody. This depression-driven drug binge will kill you. Do you have anyone who can help you get to help?

I'm very sorry for your loss, but you need to stop using right now.