Since last yr,I met him and I have felt into him.The matter is that he told me that he is gay.*sobs* And I have been crying lots,he knew about it too because he phoned me every night [never fail] But when I have been telling him my feelings indirectly,he started to be like trying to ignore or care less on me. But still he will fetch me to college and calls me as usual.
December,we ended our pre-u courses and I have went to overseas as well as back to my hometown.[During those periods,he was like did not exist anymore in my world]But unfortunately January he called me and he talked to me like usual.Worst off,he flirted with me[butterflies in stomach] I felt so uncomfortable with him because I am trying so hard to love him,stay away from him. Till one day,when he asked me whether I am still in love with him.But made sure the situation won't turn into the awkward ones,I lied and said no [But from that moment,I knew I haven't stop loving him] *His reply was as if not believing my answer. So to convince him,I swore with fear.
*he said that no other like me can love him for 1 year long
Last week,I went out with my girl's friend and I lied to him I went out with a guy.
Then I got a text from him saying that he is so proud of me.. so fast I have new lover and glad that I have been dated.. and it meant that I can really put down the past.
A few day ago,he told me about kissing.He asked me have you ever kissed before[he meant french kiss] I said yes[lies]. He was so damn clever enough to not believing me. Throughout the conversation,he was talking about the process and feeling when the kissing happens.[I am so nervous and wanted to end the call] I asked the reason why he mentioned about kissing.He replied to me that I must find someone who I have and he too in love with hi to try my first.
Why would he text me so and saying about that kissing things? I am really curious to know if he is in love with me without realizing or what? My friends been saying that he is so obsessed with me without realized.
*I am willing to give him the first if he really does love me*
*why would he at times saying that he could be bisexual and ask me to be his gf?*I don;t understand..