I was seeing cathy for 2 years, until I noticed she never seemed romantic anymore, but she has always been there for me, though her constant questions about when we should marry made me distance myself from her, I think I was looking for someone exciting to marry when I was able to in a few years or a year, so I met this girl elina on Facebook, we had been online friends on another site but nothing serious, so when we met on Facebook,we chatted and got to know what was going on in each others' lives at the time, she was completing her BA studies and I was studying as I work. One thing lead to another she decided to come to my country & see me,we all knew we had feelings for each other but we wanted to be sure the person we are having feelings for was real. The first day we went out for drinks with a friend of mine & we drove her home afterwards, I gave her a peck & told her the following day would be for only the two of us, at the time I had told cathy that I needed some space, so that I could decide what was right.
Okay to cut the long story shot, everybody on Facebook knew we are seeing each other & we loved each other a lot, she came to see me after a month and each time we had great sex, then I went to see her at her country when she had holidays and we enjoyed each others' company a lot and I was sure she was the lady of my dreams.
The third time she came to see me, she says she found a used condom in my bathroom, I am not sure if I believed her because I remember bringing 2 girls with a friend & we had sex,anyway, we talk about it & I tell elina that it must have been my friend, I deny it, but I loved elina more than anything in this world, before that another guy had written an sms to her asking her why she had stopped contacting him and calling her baby, she said it was Tony just a friend who needed more,anyway, she goes back to her country to pursue her masters after great sex and I thought everything between us was okay, when she arrived she keeps telling me she is remined of the condom & how it got there.
I was puzzled but I understood her concern, I begged her a lot & yet she kept asking me to give her time, I kept begging her not to think about it because it had nothing to do with us, I loved her more than anything in this world, she decided to break off the relationship & didn't want to pick up my calls, a week later I talked to the sister & explained everything while denying the condom, the sister talked to elina and elina still didn't want to restore the relationship, she needs space that is what elina kept saying.
Okay now she decided to get another phone number so that I could stop contacting her and she says she needs time, she doesn't want any man, she needs to concentrate on her books, driving lessons, her new found work place and stop crying.
I am not sure if this girl also cheated on me with Tony, but I cheated on her because I kept thinking of having great sex with her and I missed her a lot, now she is gone and I am not sure if I will feel the same way about her if we ever contact each other again, since she says she will give me her new number when she feels the need to.
Am I a sick person? Do I understand Love? What should I do, go back to cathy and cement our relationship because cathy provided security, love and care but the sex is not good & she is looking for marriage yet I am not ready to marry her but I can try to marry elina!
I need your professional advice on these...