I grew up in a violent home and was raped when I was seven. I am constantly putting myself down and feeling not good enough for anything, like my boyfriend, like college, like my friends. Myself esteem is very low, and feel as though no one cares. I grew up with three men who beat my mother, one man was actually in prison for murder, and from what I remember was a very angry man, however he never spoke back to me(as I always spoke back to him in an angry tone), as I was only 11 or so at the time but I threatned(because he was attacking my mom) him a lot. My mother was/is an alcoholic, and I am still not speaking with her, but the thing that scares me is that I cannot remember ALL the violent incedences but yet I am hurt angry and lost, and I no longer want to be part of this world. And no one takes me seriuosly, I am really hurting. I have tried counselling, but since I cannot remember all the incidences I cannot talk about it. What do I do? Please help me, I don't know what to do.

You don't have to remember everything. In fact, your brain is your best friend, especially when it shuts off certain memories.

Have you ever been to a counselor? He/she will help you set goals to improve your self-esteem.