Hurting and Lost and Confused!
I had been with my ex for 6 years, we lived together for 5! We moved to a new city and I moved there for her to start her career.. She came to me a year ago and said she was having curious thoughts about other men, and this is due to me not showing her affecton and touching her, anyway we worked on it and got it back to how it was, but then I let my job affect me again and I didnt't feel like a MAN and I didn't feel sexy so I couldn't perform sex with her. Now fast forward, she told me she needed her space and that she is confused! Because we have been dating since she was 21 and now she is 27, before me she had a relationship for 4 years from when she was 16-20, she stated to me she hasn't had the chance to date others and experience men. I am so hurt because I started to save for a ring and save for a house and now I fear that I have lost her forever! I want her back and I know the best way is to let her be, and for me to do my thing! But the kicker is we broke up on a Thursday, Saturday she was with some dude, and I went by our Apt. to get my clothes and our dog was excited to see me and peed on the floor I cleaned it up and opened the trash and found a condom wrapper, needless to say I was devastated! When she told me we needed to separate she did state she was going to date! Now get this I went back to my home town for a few days to clear my head and we decided to have a talk when I get back. I came back and we talked, we cried in each others arms for hours, she said that she didn't want to start over and learn someone new, and that I am what she envisioned in a husband it is just that she wants to get this out her system. Will she come back I am so hurt?!