I've come to realize that I have been depressed for a very long time... and I've known it. Deep inside I've known Im not shy or awkard but there's always been an inner wall that keeps me from going from being me and lately its gotten worse. Its just I don't want to feel this way. I feel as if Im trapped. No matter how hard I try to smile I can't and no matter how many people I make smile or bring joy into their lives I can't seem to bring joy to myself. I've had no tramatic experiences in my life. I come from a good family so why do I feel like crying all the time ! Lately its gotton worst. I've cut contacts with everyone, I stopped believing in god, I stopped caring in everything and everyone/ I've gain weight, I can't stop this overwhelming cloud of hopelessness... I'm giving up. I don't want to die but I don't want to live like this. I try asking for help, I know I need it but my attempts are feeble and no one seems to believe me... no one seems to think I'm dying inside. No one sees that girl that cries during passing periods, the one that can't sleep , I managed to fool everyone but myself...

Hope did something happen to you. Do you know why your depressed.

Speak to a doctor - they will believe you!

I know how you feel hope, but I know the reason why I'm depressed.

If I was you I'd go and see a counciler, tell them how you're feeling. You're not alone in this world and never think you are.

Start thinking possitive things about yourself, start a diary.. and when you look in a mirror compliment yourself in your head. Yes it might be a little weird, but it really helps.

I'm only fourteen myself and little things like that make the whole difference.