How can I prove myself and establish a relationship?
Hello! I would be grateful if someone could share their opinion and advices about my situation.
First I am going to tell a bit about myself.
I am a 20 years old male. I have been born under the Virgo zodiac sign and inherited all the characteristics that came with it. I am not good at romance and no good with women. I get along with them easily as far as simple friendship goes but I have never had a girlfriend. To put it simply: I used to see love, sex and all the sentimental crap as a weakness and an inhibitor. I have never actually searched for a woman and have never let anyone in as well. Without boasting I can say that I am a handsome fellow, athletic and witty. However, I have a hard time telling weather a woman actually likes me or not. I can usually see through people like through glass in any other case. I am a loner and prefer to spend my evenings reading books or watching "National Geographic". Never have I felt the sensation of love and the pain of loss. I have no interest in having a short term relationship with anyone because I consider it pointless. In short-I have dedicated my entire life upgrading my mind and body and left everything else dormant. That doesn't mean I am all mind. My heart is in the right place and I love helping people. I am responsible, dedicated and above all else reliable to the core. I wish everyone well and rarely get angry. But I lack confidence in myself.
A few days ago my whole life routine foundations were stricken hard. I have fallen for a girl. We met accidentally at her workplace and started talking. Despite the fact that I felt a phenomenally potent attraction towards her I had no hopes at the beginning. However after just 10 minutes I understood that something was not right not as I had anticipated. I have never felt like that in my entire life. I can say that I have an extreme sense of humor and can make almost anything seem funny. Few people want to relate to a joker. But she saw through me. Through the mask of the joker. We talked for 5 hours the first day and 8 hours the second. We talked about the most crazy stuff and almost laughed our "guts" out the whole time. No word, glimpse, movement went to waste or was misunderstood. It was like staring at the feminine copy of myself. Until that time I thought it was impossible for me to find a woman who could stand my crazy personality. She is very sweet, loveable, simple, understanding, caring, diligent and hardworking. I feel a strong positive aura around her. She never said anything that could insult me in any way. And she is simply gorgeous. We were both a little freaked out about how we immediately related. We were and are complete strangers. She said it herself that she feels like we had known each other all our lives. She even agreed that I would drive her home. I waited for 3h. So I could take her home.- What sensible girl would sit in a car with a stranger? I asked her. She said that she would never do that, however for some reason she trusted me. I can feel that she likes me but is mixed and unsure of who I am and what I want. Well! I want a soul mate. I person I could relate to, care for and love with everything I have. Sexual attraction is not the case here. I would agree to never have sex again if I could just be near that girl. But how can I show my dedication and pureness towards her without freaking her out. That is the question. I want to show her that my intentions are bright, pure and altruistic. I don't want to take advantage of her, I don't want to seduce her. I want to be her friend, her caretaker, her guardian. I want to bring this girl kindness, happiness and love. I want her to trust me and I will shower her with unconditional love and dedication.
I am going to see her again tomorrow at her workplace. I feel its going to be another 8h.run. But how do I approach her. How can I reveal my true intentions without looking funky and weird. I don't want to look like a crazy dude who leeched on and doesn't leave her alone. She is sensitive but cautious and smart. So a part of her will definitely think I might be some lunatic or something. Please share your opinion on how I should proceed in order not to frighten her and show her who I really am and what I really want.
Thank you very much!
P.S She is a Taurus by zodiac. Maybe this will shed some light on her personality.