Totally lost with being unemployed, in debt, self-employed and 59
I'm not sure why I'm writing this. I don't have anyone to talk to about it and the big irony is I coach and give advice to others about business issues. No one could imagine I'd be the one in trouble. My problems began 3 years ago when I gave up a partnership to take a job with a progressive California company as EVP. The salary was double and it looked like a great opportunity. My first born was in college out of state so I needed the extra income. I had spent all my savings and retirement to invest in the first company and forfeited my investment. Fast forward to the beginning of 2008. The president left the company and the CEO indicated I would be the replacement after he managed the company for a few months. He then changed his tune and offered to spin off my division for a small licensing fee of the name. As I was familiar with most of the financials I knew we had a substantial 2009 book of business. What I didn't know was what corporate allocations hit my division for shared services like accounting, HR, rent and CAM, etc. When fast forward to December when the CEO decided to fold the company and lay -off every one including myself. He didn't even have the courage to tell me. I heard it from the HR clerk! I received two weeks of severance and for the past 8 months have scrambled to set up my own consulting practice. For the most part I have been successful, except that a few clients have delayed in paying me or have said after work was completed they could only pay half. I relied on credit cards to carry the slow pay when all of a sudden all my never-late credit limits were scaled down. Now no open-to-buy. Add to the fact, I lived out of state when I was told I would be president and moved across country to rent a house leaving my house in another state with a mgt company to rent. It has been partially rented for a net loss each month of $1100. Just today my client I was expecting to carry me through September said he could only pay half of my fee. So I'm out of cash -- almost totally, no investments, less than $15K in a 401, a monthly need of nearly $10K a month in expenses. Negative cash flow for at least the next three months. So I'm ed and don't know what to do. All my bills are current and my credit, although there is too much of it, is good. That's all about to change. The irony is.. . I could be fine in two weeks if my proposals are accepted for new business. But ultimately at 59, this is just dress rehearsal for a few years from now when I may not be able to sell myself. Is this just as desperate as it seems?