First of all, Don't tell me I'm a loser for having a long distant relationship, I don't care, Don't judge me. But here goes, Basically I was with my girlfriend who I met on habbo a while back, We were so god damn close like you wouldn't believe, Now call me a cheater yeah I was flirting with her quite a lot while I was with this other girl. Right just to make things unconfusing il call these girls different names just in case they see what I write, Basically, Janine, Is the person who I was with while I was flirting with the Girl Hannah. Hannah is a girl I've been with for weeks now, We broke up 2 weeks ago because we found it a struggle cause of the distance, we meet roughly a month or less ago, And things were really bright between us, Like, I hadn't been happier in my entire god damn life, I know, Sad right, Haven't been happier in my life then meeting a girl who lives all the way in wales. Anyway, I don't go out much, At all, Ever since I've left school I've distanced myself from my peers because I've been adicted to a website called habbo, Where whom I consider to be my close friends there. Anyway, Me and this girl Hannah, Was Closer than ever, We even sent long texts to each other about how much we meant to each other, though we had the odd argument, One time I rang her up, [This is where I up] I tell her that we should be friends cause I'm ruining her life with these arguments, I regret the call 5 minutes later and said I didn't mean that, then she begins considering, eventually we're fine, she goes away for a week, we barly spoke, she came back, a few days later we broke up, we cried over the fone to each other cause its not what we wanted, this sadness, After that we were really close, Like never before, we were a lot closer than we were when we barely spoke [Before the break up cause of the arguments] And we always rang each other, Then two days ago, I was feeling , I felt like I was being lead on cause we were constantly flirting and what would happen when she suddenly gets a new boyfriend? How would I feel, so anyway, I couldn't tell her, and she wasn't talking much to me, the next day, we spoke, I hardly said a thing, and a large argument esculated, and later that day, an even bigger one, we said what's the ing point, this ing sucks, I hate this drama and all the arguments, etc, it was a lot more to it, so today, I told her how sorry I was [advice from a friend] and it turned out she didn't know what to say, and that led to another argument, so I rang her, she didn't know who it was cause I was withheld, she was all happy and bright with a lovley HELLO, then she recognized my voice and her words were "oh..hi" And we said we would start fresh tomorrow, so yeah, the person I was the ing closest with, who I literally haven't loved this much, who I just would die for, And I've just wrecked our friendship, and relationship, So I feel so god damn crap right now, and if you say there's more fish in the sea, that makes me feel so much worse. Here's number two, a few days ago we get a call from the hospital, my sister tried to kill herself and almost succeeded, Yep she swallowed all kinds of down her, and yep I'm just calm about it, dad came home yesterday after meeting my mother, who left us 2 months ago by the way, my dad isn't happy, he was drunk, and was calling me all kinds of , and a few things got smashed about [by me] today he apologized though so I dc about the latter. That's about it, Don't tell me the things I don't want to hear cause I won't look at them, I just want some good news.
Something that will get me back on my feet. Make me happy again, Make me try and patch things up with the girl
